The pain I see in my family’s eyes is the worst! Young mum is fighting leukaemia!

I’m looking at my son and I dream about watching him grow up. I’m wondering if this smile on his face, that I’m seeing today, I’d still be able to see in a few days, months, years?

Would Oncology determine my end or a new beginning?

There was a moment in my life when I felt like everything was falling into it’s place- it was simply perfect - It was then when I heard my death sentence.

I was terrified when I was listening to my diagnosis. Those words spoken to me by the doctor -it was all a blur.

All I could think in that moment was running away, that I could just hide somewhere away from it all, I felt like screaming all the anger out of my body... Only after the initial shock, I could start thinking rationally; I began to feel the need to fight.

I was once given hope and a chance to live; after the bone marrow transplant, I believed with all my heart, that I got a second life.

The results were clear - they confirmed my victory! It was May - a miracle happened! Two months - that is how long I’ve been given to enjoy my ‘new’ healthy life. In July, I’ve heard the diagnosis for the second time. The cancer came back and I didn’t even have the time to realise that I was in the beginning all over again.

I faced the fight again, without anything - unarmed, hopeless. Without a treatment plan, because the doctors couldn’t see another option but this insanely expensive treatment that would offer me the last chance to stand a fight against leukaemia. I don’t have the means, the money, which would provide me with the hope to be able to think about the future, and that my son will still continue to have a mum in his life.

Over 100 thousands - a couple of medication boxes, a couple of months of therapy, a couple of attempts to save my life. I am aware that my life exists conditionally, all depending on whether I would be able to receive the medication on time.

Being aware that I could disappear from my family’s lives - shattered my heart. I am holding onto life with all my strength.

I need good people, who would help me fight this monster.