I can't lose another child! Please, give Mikołaj a chance...

Please, read this appeal because I'm against the wall and I don't know what to do! For several years I have been trying unsuccessfully to help my child... Mikołaj is with me, but only the body. There is no contact with him. After 7 years I finally got a chance to change it and let my son speak to me!  I am begging you for help ...

I enter the store, squeezing Mikołaj's hand tightly. Just a moment of inattention - the fact that I look at something on a store shelf or reach into my purse to pay for shopping. Son pulls his hand out of my hand. He rushes to escape. Screams. He runs out into the street, ignoring the people, speeding cars. I run after him, calling his name. I am dying of fear because Mikołaj does not know what a threat he can hurt himself. Passers-by stop, look. A crowd of onlookers. My son does not look at me, he acts as if he did not know me... He does not speak. Still just screaming...

This is what everyday life looks like with an autistic child. I have stopped paying attention to the looks, or caring about the strangers' comments. For 7 years - and that's how much Mikołaj has been with us - a man will get used to it. Reconcile - I will never do that.

He was born as a healthy boy. The joy of the birth of my son was enormous... Every day with him in my arms - wonderful. It was like that for 2 years. And then in one day everything changed. When I put him to sleep, he was still a talkative, resolute boy... He spoke a lot, accosted everyone. When he woke up the next day, he didn't say a word. When he wanted something, he pointed. Everything he could do has disappeared.

We visited several doctors. They comforted me that it was a two-year rebellion. I really wanted to believe it... Unfortunately, my son was getting worse. He wasn't looking at me, he was looking somewhere. Aggressive behavior has begun, which is our bane to this day. Son screamed, threw objects, ran away... There was no contact with him.

The worst suspicions proved to be true. Nicholas has autism. This is a very serious disorder. The son's brain is not working properly... Because of this, Mikołaj has huge problems finding himself in the world, contact with others, being understood. Son will show what he wants to eat, drink, that he needs to bathroom... But nothing more. He can swing for hours on a swing, from dawn to night, like next to him, and yet absent .. Sometimes he gets mad, screams, throws toys, runs away.

Fate does not spoil us. First he took us Mikołaj. He cut it off from us with some thick glass that we can't break. Later Mikołaj lost three of his siblings and I lost three children. I gave birth to two pregnancies... My daughter, born too early, died after 2 hours. Those children, even if I would like it more than life, I can't save... But I can save Mikołaj. I've lost too much, I can't lose him yet!

Therapists believe that the attacks of Mikołaj's aggression and his escape are due to frustration. My son wants to communicate with others, but he can't... He gets angry because we don't understand him. He learned that only anger causes a reaction... If Mikołaj makes progress in speech, unblocks himself and learns to communicate, then his behavior will also change. It will become calmer,because it will be understood ... Escapes and throwing objects will also disappear, which is the most difficult for us.

After years, there was finally a chance for this to happen! Mikołaj qualified for stem cell treatment! The patient is transplanted with cells that are supposed to rebuild what is damaged in the brain... This is a great opportunity for Mikołaj, in the case of other children it gives results. We have to try, there is nothing to wait for!T he first application is scheduled for September. Unfortunately - this is still a new treatment, experimental, and therefore payable and very, very expensiv ...

I am asking for help, because sometimes it is so hard for us... I would like to hear the word "mom" once in my life, spoken by Mikołaj. I would like to go with him for a simple walk without constantly struggling and listening to his screams. I don't want to wonder anymore, standing with my back to my son, if in a moment I won't get any toy in the head ... I finally want to have contact with my son.

Please, help us.